Enrique's Journal

location: In my own room.

mood: lonely

music: Hawthorne Heights-Rescue Me

Well, this is the first time I am typing in a live journal.
Never thought this would be so...fun!

Well, enough of that. Time to wine about my days.

Well, today was ok. In school, we've been building boats out of cardboard. We had to make sure they float with someone in them, and we had to get the fastest time in rowing the boat from one side of the pool to the other.

My team's boats was an epic phail. The minute the girl who was suppose to get in, got in, it started to crumble from the back and got destroyed.

Everyone else's boats tipped over except for the exception of a few.

What else to talk about...ah...yes...Nick's hair.

There's this kid in my Cohort. His name's Nick. He's my study buddy for English. Today, he brought his hair straight, which closely resembled my hair back in my middle school in LA Academy Middle School. Since I've cut my hair for religious reasons (promise to a saint), I've been trying to grow it back to how it was. The bad thing is, what if people think I'm copying Nick for attention? I don't want that to happen. I'm an outcast as it is already.

Like in English. Nobody invited me to play any board games. I know, I know. Go up ahead and ask to play. The problem is that I'm not to very...intruding. Per say, I won't just do something because I feel like it. It feels like I have a moral string tied to me, disallowing most freedom of my own.

How I miss my old school. Nobody likes me here at CAMS. I feel like an outcast. Like I wasn't meant here. Like I shouldn't even be here.

Even at my cousin's house. It seems sad that my cousin, Daniel, is my best friend. Socorro, my other cousin and Daniel's sister, she was another of my best friends, until she started hanging out with her friends again and started going sort of stuck up. I really don't like stuck up people! They get everything they want! Like Lorbing from school...

I know it's wrong to talk about kids from my school, but like on schoolloop, a place where most of the kids from CAMS hangout, he posts something about insects, and all of a sudden, he's saying he's the hottest guy in our cohort and theres a girl going like "yeahhhhhhhh! ur my idol!". Sigh...

Maybe if someone knew me better...

Because I never judge on looks.

Because I never judge on anything but one thing.

The way someone truly is. For what they truly are. I admire.

I feel like a rose in a way.

I can be very great (I'm being self centered a bit), but with no one to look after me, with no other roses around, I soon become wilted, and sadly die alone.

And dieing alone, is what I have been fearing for a long time.

I guess that's everything I could say about today. Tomorrow, I should post more.